TURNING 30

WOW ......... THIS SUNDAY I TURN THE BIG THREE O!
TEN YEARS AGO I STARTED MY TWENTIES AND NOW A NEW CHAPTER AS I TURN 30 THIS SUNDAY.

I AM CONFLICTED ABOUT TURNING THIRTY BUT AT THE SAME I AM NOT, WEIRD RIGHT?

THERE ARE QUITE A FEW REASON'S TURNING THIRTY DOES NOT BOTHER ME ,
1. IT'S A NEW DECADE WERE I CAN FURTHER MY FUTURE INTO A POSITIVE DIRECTION.
2. EVEN THOUGH I HAVE A COUPLE PATCHES OF GRAY HAIR AND WILL PROBABLY BE FULLY  GRAY BY 35, I'LL NEVER DYE MY HAIR BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE I WOULD NOT BE MY AUTHENTIC SELF.
3. BEING MARRIED TO A WIFE THAT IS FULL OF LIFE AND A GREAT SENSE OF HUMOR, I DON'T THINK I'LL EVER TRULY FEEL OLDER AS THE YEARS GO BY.

WHAT I AM CONFLICTED ABOUT IS HOW FAR COME IN LIFE IN THE PAST TEN YEARS.
THIS JUNE 9TH WILL BE MY TENTH YEAR SOBER , QUITE A MILESTONE I WILL SAY.

SOMETHING I HAVE TO ADMIT AND I KNOW SOME OF YOU WILL BE SHOCKED OR MAYBE NOT , LAST SPRING I STARTED SMOKING POT AGAIN FOR MY ULTRA BAD MIGRAINES.
FYI FOR THOSE WHO ARE CONCERN, I DON'T SMOKE TO RUN AWAY FROM LIFE'S PROBLEMS, I SMOKE SO I CAN HAVE LESS MIGRAINES.
IS THE HIGH NICE ? DO I ENJOY IT ? YES AND YES.
JUST ONE FINAL THING ABOUT ME SMOKING POT ,  WHEN  WE MOVE , I HAVE TO STOP SMOKING BECAUSE ITS NOT LEGAL IN THE STATE WE ARE MOVING TO THIS YEAR. 
WHICH I'LL CAN DEAL WITH , IT WILL SUCK BECAUSE POT DOES HELP ME OUT LOT,
I'M PRAYING THAT IGNORANCE THAT SOME PEOPLE HAVE ABOUT POT WILL CEASE SOMEDAY AND THAT ONE DAY IT WILL BE FEDERALLY LEGAL EVERYWHERE SOME DAY .

 THOUGH I WILL BE PROUD OF MYSELF ON JUNE 9TH BEING TEN YEARS SOBER , I HAVE BEEN ASKING MYSELF , IS THIS MY BIGGEST MILESTONE?

NO IT IS NOT !!!!

THIS NEW DECADE OF LIFE I AM ENTERING INTO I'M TAKING PERSONAL RESPONSIBILITY FOR MY FUTURE BUT AT THE SAME BREATHE , I AM PUTTING MY LIFE IN GOD'S HANDS.
I DO BELIEVE GOD DOES MAKE DREAMS COME TRUE BUT I ALSO BELIEVE YOU HAVE TO PUT IN THAT WORK ALSO.
WHEN YOU DO PUT IN THAT WORK , YOU GET THOSE LIFE SKILLS AND LIFE LESSON'S THAT YOU NEED TO HAVE TO CONTINUE TO GROW AS A HUMAN BEING.

HERE IS THE TEN THINGS I WILL ACCOMPLISH BY THE TIME I AM FORTY:

1. BE MORE HEALTHY
2. SHOW MORE GRACE TOWARDS THOSE HAVE HURT ME AND TO THOSE ONES THAT HURT IN THE FUTURE.
3. GET MY DRIVERS LICENSE
4. HELP MY WIFE MAKE HER DREAMS COME TRUE 
5.  WORK ON MY TEMPER
6. SPEND LESS TIME ON SOCIAL MEDIA
7. TRAVEL MORE
8. BECOME A FULL TIME WRITER/BLOGGER
9. GIVE MORE
10. OPEN UP A RESTAURANT

I KNOW  THIS IS A TALL ORDER AND I MAY NOT FINISH THIS LIST OR EVEN BE PERFECT AT IT , BUT WITH GOD'S WISDOM , MY WIFE, MY FAMILY , AND MY FRIENDS I KNOW CAN SUCCEED! 

THE KEY THING FOR ME IN THIS NEW DECADE I AM STARTING , IS TO LEAN ON GOD'S UNDERSTANDING , NOT MY OWN OR MAN'S UNDERSTANDING.

I AM EXCITED TO SEE WHAT THE NEXT TEN YEARS WILL BE LIKE BUT I WILL TAKE EACH DAY AS IT COMES AT ME .