Leemans Song Of The Week!

This weeks song Let You Down is by Rapper NF .

Here is info on NF:

Nathan John Feuerstein (/ˈfɔɪ.ərstaɪn/; born March 30, 1991), known by his stage name NF, is an American rapper, artist and songwriter, who has charted in both the Christian hip hop and mainstream hip hop markets. He released an extended play in 2014 with Capitol CMG, NF, which was his breakthrough release on the Billboard charts. He has released three studio albums: Mansion in 2015, Therapy Session in 2016 and Perception, released October 6, 2017.

Although he is a Christian, he does not consider himself a Christian rapper. NF calls himself "just an artist who makes music for everybody". ( source wikipedia )

When I heard NF  was on track By Flame , called Start Over . Nf just did vocals for song , not rap , an I was not feeling him at first.  

Then I heard NF's Song Mansion , Bruh...................................................................................!!!!!!!!!!!

I can relate to Mansion so much , these are the lyrics hit me  the most :

And I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am
And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can
Shrug it off like it ain't nothing, like it's out of my hands
Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans
And I regret watchin' these trust issues eat me alive
And at the rate I'm goin', they'll probably still be there when I die
Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind
The question is, will I ever clean the walls off in time?

Now on to the song of week Let You Down .

I love the rawness of this song and he wrestles with letting himself down earlier in his life.

How I relate to this song is that lately , I feel like I have let people close to me down . 

An honestly , some days I just don't the energy to fight whatever demon or demons are on my back.

Sidenote : I am thankful for those close to me for keeping me going and keep grounded .

Here are my lyrics that hit me hard in Let You Down:

Yeah, you don't wanna make this work
You just wanna make this worse
Want me to listen to you, but you don't ever hear my words
You don't wanna know my hurt yet
Let me guess, you want an apology, probably
How can we keep going at a rate like this?
We can't, so I guess I'ma have to leave
Please, don't come after me
I just wanna be alone right now, I don't really wanna think at all
Go ahead, just drink it off
Both know you're gonna call tomorrow like nothing's wrong
Ain't that what you always do?
I feel like every time I talk to you, you're in an awful mood
What else can I offer you?

There's nothing left right now, I gave it all to you 

Here is NF'S Let You Down :