Wednesday, May 30, 2018

THE STORM IS CALM









So a big , big , big update .............................................................................................................

 AFTER EIGHT MONTHS OF QUITTING MY PREVIOUS  JOB , I GOT A FULL TIME JOB WITH BETTER PAY AND BENEFITS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Man theses eight months have been truly hard and very exhausting , without God I would have not made it through this storm!
Even though this was one of the hardest times in my life , I have no regrets quitting my previous job.
I have to give a huge shoutout to my wife who truly stood by me and making sure we stayed afloat , LOVE YOU BABE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I also want to give a big thanks to my connect church family for keeping grounded during this rough season in my life !
Also a big shoutout to my folks for praying for my wife and I during this rough time in our life . 

So now I want to share some lessons I have learned and what I am still struggling with .

1.  Before and during this rough a couple of people broke my spirit and killed my dreams. 
You might saying why are you allowing these people to have that type of power over you?
I wish I could answer you but 1. I don't really have an answer and 2. these are good people and it is best I hold my tongue. I have learned to keep my dreams to myself and to accept my predestined place in this world.

2. I have a great support system and need to lean on them more often !


3.  I have limited skills , hopefully at this new job I can add new skills to my skill set.


4.  I need to really seek out some Christian counseling because I will admit my relationship with Jesus is a little bruised right now.   


5.  Me going to to the gym has been a great asset to me staying sane during theses last two months.


As you can see I am still struggling with some stuff  but I am going to be more than okay!
This is all part of growth and were I am at right now .

I leave you with this encouraging quote :

  

A Healthier Me Update / Leeman's Song Of The Week



So again I don't have a huge update on my health , so again i am combining a Healthier Me Update and Leemans's Song Of The Week blog entry together !


Healthier Me Update :  Well I have lost two more pounds and I have shaved three minutes off my mile on the treadmill !
I have started doing DDP YOGA and I have noticed already I am more flexible then I have been in awhile .
I have so far lost ten pounds  and currently I am at 300 pounds .
My goal by the end of december is to 250 pounds .





   
LEEMAN'S SONG OF THE WEEK!



This week's song is Pusha t's new diss track  The Story Of Adidon !
Bruh.........................................................................................................................................
Pusha went for the jugular !  oooooh Drake is going to have to do his homework after this one!
I can't believe Pusha took it there ! This beef on wax is going be fun this summer !

   

Thursday, May 24, 2018

THREE THINGS THAT ARE BUGGING LEEMAN RIGHT NOW PART 3




1.  Waiting to see if I get this job !!!!!!!

I had interview on monday with a bank call center that pays really really well.
I was hoping to know if I got the job today but looks i will have to wait until tomorrow.
I am really stressed about this because  I have been looking for eight months and I have little success/
One thing I have learned in this tough season is to take people's advice on finding work with grain of salt  , about 98% of the advice that has been given to me about finding work has been a flop.
I am not sure what I'll do if I don't get this job !



2.  NFL AND THE ANTHEM

So now the NFL is forcing their players to stand for the anthem , is it because they truly respect our country and the military ?   HELL TO THE NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
They NFL made this decision because it was in their best financial interest to force players to stand up for the anthem. Key thing here , the only thing the NFL cares about is making money off their players at any cost . 


3.  Calories!!!!!!!!

So with this new me being cautious about how many calories I take in a day has been rough.
I have been trying to stay in the range of  1200 -1400 calories a day , I have successful with that range but i have had days when I have gone over .
I just wish it was easier to lose weight but I know with the hard work I have been doing , that will eventually pay off.  Next monday I will give you more of an update on my health.

Wednesday, May 23, 2018

LEEMAN'S TOP TEN SONGS AS OF RIGHT NOW




SO I THOUGHT INSTEAD OF DOING LEEMAN'S SONG OF THE WEEK , THAT I WOULD SHARE MY TOP TEN SONG'S AS OF RIGHT NOW.
I SAY AS OF RIGHT NOW BECAUSE MY TOP EN SONGS IS ALWAYS CHANGING !
SO LET'S GET THIS PARTY JUMPIN!


10.FEEL IT STILL BY  PORTUGAL, THE MAN

PORTUGAL, THE MAN IS ONE MY NEW FAVORITE BANDS !
I HAD HEARD SOME OF MUSIC BEFORE BUT I DID NOT FALL IN LOVE WITH THEM UNTIL FEEL IT STILL CAME OUT. PLEASE GIVE THIS BAND A LISTEN OR TWO




9.  WHO KILLED SHADY? BY GRIZZY HENDRIX

A COUPLE DAYS AGO THIS SHOWED UP IN MY YOUTUBE FEED , BRUH.................
GRIZZY GOES HARD ! THIS SONG IS BANANAS!!!!
CAN NOT WAIT TO SEE WHAT THIS DOPE RAPPER  DOES IN THE FUTURE!
  



8.  CATERPILLAR BY ROYCE DA 5'9 FEAT EMINEM  , KING GREEN

BRUH .......... DUDE............. YO......................   THIS IS ........ STRAIGHT FIRE...................
BEEN A FAN OF ROYCE DA 5'9 FOR AWHILE AND ALWAYS DELIVERS WITH 100% DOPE MUSIC . I HIGHLY SUGGEST YOU CHECK OUT ROYCE DA 5'9 !
  



7.   HEADSTRONG BY SAVIOR 
ONE OF MY FAVORITE YOUTUBE CHANNELS IS DREAMBOUND RECORDS, THEY HAVE TONS OF GREAT BANDS .
THIS SHOWED UP IN MY NEWS FEED IN APRIL , SUCH A GREAT SONG AND I LOVE SAVIOURS SOUND !
 


6. CRY FOR YOU BY LECRAE FEAT TAYLOR HILL
CRY FOR YOU WAS THE FIRST SONG OF THE WEEK AND I'M STILL LISTENING TO THIS BEAUTIFUL SONG .
LECRAE IS ONE OF MY FAVORITE RAPPERS OF ALL TIME BECAUSE HE IS SO REAL .
HE GETS A LOT OF UNNECESSARY HATE FROM FELLOW CHRISTIAN RAPPERS , WHICH IS SAD  BUT HE KEEPS GOING , WHICH IS WHY I LOVE LECRAE.
  


5.  SURVIVOR BY ZACH WILLIAMS 

LOVE ZACH WILLIAMS AND THIS SONG !
THIS SONG HAS UPLIFT ME WITH WHAT I HAVE GOING THROUGH FOR THE PAST 8 MONTHS . I ALSO LOVE ZACH WILLIAMS SONG CHAIN BREAKER !
   



4. GARMENTS BY CORY ASBURY 
THIS MY FAVORITE WORSHIP SONG RIGHT NOW !
COREY ASBURY , WHO SOME OF YOU KNOW HIM  BY HIS SONG RECKLESS LOVE , IN MY OPINION IS ONE THE BEST WORSHIP ARTIST TODAY.  COREY ASBURY TRULY UNDERSTANDS GOD'S HEART !
  


3.  GOTTA LIVE BY TEDASHII FEAT .  JORDAN FELIZ 
THIS SONG CAME OUT TODAY AND I AM LOVING IT !
I HAVE BEEN LISTENING TO TEDASHII SINCE 2010 , HE ALWAYS BRINGS THE FIRE TO HIS SONGS !



2.  ZOMBIE BY BAD WOLVES 

THIS HAS TO BE THE TOP COVER SONG OF 2018!
BAD WOLVES HAVE BROUGHT MORE LIFE TO THE CRANBERRIES CLASSIC ZOMBIE!
LOOKING FORWARD TO HEARING MORE FROM BAD WOLVES !





1.  GOING THRU HELL BY STYLES P

GOING THRU HELL IS MY FAVORITE TRACK OFF G-HOST !
STYLES P IS ONE MY FAVORITE RAPPERS OF ALL TIME !
YOU NEED TO CHECK OUT G-HOST NOW !



Tuesday, May 22, 2018

A VLOG ON RACISM



So I belong to a group on FaceBook called Thinking Out Loud , an each day there is a theme.
Today's theme in the group is cultural appreciation day, so I have decided to do a blog/vlog on Racism. 
So here is is my vlog on Racism , I hope you learn something and grow from this vlog .



Thursday, May 17, 2018

DEAR MR. CHRISTIAN










I have been waiting to write this letter but was afraid to write this because of backlash I might get and having to deal with ignorant Christians . But  you know what , I don't care anymore!

Leeman's definition of a Mr. Christian: " A Mr. Christian is a man or woman who say they are a Christian but in reality they are a modern day Pharisee .  They have head knowledge but lack compassion and  don't understand the true meaning of grace .  A pastor who is a Mr. Christian  makes man made rules for his congregation. Theses rules are not biblical but  a Mr. Christian pastor will scare you into believing they are. A Mr. Christian pastor has to have his service organized to perfection  and tries to limit the movement of the Holy Spirit.   A Mr. Christian will bully you into believing his or her theology."



Dear Mr. Christian ,


Mr. Christian , I have gone too long with out addressing you , an as Ricky would say to Lucy , you got some explaining to do !!

Mr. Christian , the reason I am addressing you now ,  after so much hate for the worship song Reckless Love by Cory Asbury , I knew I needed to write this letter to you.

Mr. Christian, you decided to whine and complain like a child because a worship song said God's Love was reckless .   How can you not see how some people might see Gods love as reckless ?
Think about my testimony, I was a drug addict, a drug dealer , and a alcoholic , yet when I surrendered my life to Christ ,  Christ said Yes and healed me of my brokeness !
 That is reckless because I deserved death but Christ chose to save me ! 
If you are going to pick apart every new worship song , then be honest about the worship songs you like , Cause I could point a few from back in the day that are not biblical , but not going to because then I would be like you.

  Mr. Christian,  You say love people but when they come to your church the first time , you either ignore them  until they answer altar to give there lives to Christ  .  Or you don't ignore them and  you try to convert them before you even ask their name .
Here is some friendly advice , greet new people to your church with a smile , eye contact , and a firm handshake.  Introduce yourself   , ask their name , get to know them , and maybe offer to take them out to eat !
New people should able to come to your church anxiety free , it should not feel like a job interview.


Mr. Christian , this more to white Mr. Christians , You let politics become too much of your identity !
The Republican party is not a denomination In Christianity!
I'm all for standing up against abortion or standing up for  a biblical marriage, but when you sound like a Fox News commentator from the pulpit, you might want to take break and take a good look at yourself  and you relationship with Christ .  Don't get me wrong , there are times when politics needs to be addressed but in my opinion, should be on a limited basis.  

To my white Mr. Christians, do you realise you are pushing away black Christians with you spreading the lie that racism does not exist anymore in this country ? How can you turn the other way when cops beat and kill black people ?! How can turn the other way while your President spews racist propaganda on twitter ?   An yet you say this president is saved ? How?!
It is time for us white Christians to stand with our black brother and sisters in Christ !

In conclusion,  I could go on keep calling you out on sins but I am want show you mercy and grace that you refuse to show others . 
   Please take this letter to heart an repent and change your mindset!
I want you to know Mr. Christian , I love you and that's why I wrote this letter to you!

Love,
Brian Luke Leeman

If we are focused on rule keeping, if we are focused on earning God's acceptance through our efforts, if we are focused on trying to meet the convictions and standards of others, God becomes a gloomy killjoy and the vibrant relationship we desire with Him becomes dull, distant and difficult to bear. As we spin the plates of legalism, our Christian walk increasingly becomes a burden with the continual addition of another plate. And to keep the plates spinning, we'll focus more on the plates, our legalistic rulebook, than our intimate and exciting and joyful walk with the living God.-Randy Smith
          
          

Monday, May 14, 2018

A Leeman Healthier Then Me Update / Leeman's Song Of The Week

So this week I am combining My healthier me update and y song of the week , because there is not much to update on my health.

So starting with my health update , I did not gain or lose any weight in the past 2 weeks , frustrating but I have solutions to step up my game .
I recently got DDP YOGA , I have been doing push ups , squats, and sit ups at home to add to my exercise , an I will be going for walks.
So thats my update on my health , hoping to update you guys in two weeks that I am under 300 pounds.






This week's song is from one of my favorite rap groups Twiztid !

I started listening to Twiztid in 2004 during my freshmen year of high school , Twiztid's music made feel accepted,  an that I could be me .
First song I heard from Twiztid was We Don't Die , It was different but that's what made me fall in love with Twiztid's music . Here is a little bio on Twiztid !:

Twiztid is an American hip hop group from Detroit, Michigan. Formed in 1997, Twiztid is composed of Jamie Spaniolo and Paul Methric, who perform under the respective personas of Jamie Madrox and Monoxide. Spaniolo and Methric are former members of the group House of Krazees, which disbanded in 1997 a year after the duo's departure, they released their debut album in 1997.
Twiztid performs a style of horrorcore rap and have released 11 studio albums, 10 EP's, 8 compilation albums and 1 mixtape. (wiki)
So here is The Deep End By Twiztid Feat. Caskey: