A TOUGH SEASON

What is up guys !!!!!!

It has been 3 months since my last blog entry and I have missed blogging,

I have been busy with my job , life , and dealing with depression, so it is has been hard to blog but i am going to try to fit blogging once or twice a week in my life . 

So I thought I would give insight on the tough season I having been facing the lately , so let's dive in!

So if you have  read previous blogs you know that back in september of last year I went to a " ag pastors conference " and was told I was told in so many words that I was not called to be a pastor,

This incident started my path to depression.

 I have come to terms that I am not called to be a pastor , I am really okay with that and I really don't have the desire to be a pastor anymore.

My questions to God has been , how do I fit into your Kingdom ? Do I fit into your Kingdom Lord ?

 I am a really saved ? 

To keep it 100,  God has not answered those questions.

My faith is on empty and To keep it 100, I have not felt this way before .

So I ask those have been saved for a long time and those whose faith is deep rooted , to keep me in your prayers .

My dad had a health scare recently and bunch of drama has manifested it self , so that has been stressful and tiring. 

Even with that stress , I know that can only control my reaction and choices I make during this tough time .

On a positive note,  I'm doing okay at my job , starting to get a hang of the job.    

I have lost 15 pounds ! I'm really proud of my weight loss progress and can't wait to see more progress. 

My Wife and I finally got a 1st floor apt , here in Maine , especially in the winter , a first floor apt is ideal .

Well that is all I have to say for now , I hope to blog more in the coming week, LOVE YA'LL !!!!!!!!